Thursday, June 9, 2011

Life with a Four Month Old and The Meaning of Life

Somehow it has been four months since my life changed. There are things I ponder when my mind wanders: God, the meaning of life, time, humanity, and happiness. Somehow all these things are starting to make sense when I stare into a certain pair of baby blues.

So, I've slacked on writing? Too bad. I'm pumping boobie milk, squeezing in hurried meals and showers, trying to find my brain so I can function enough to work, and trying to find time to just enjoy my daughter and husband. Truth is there isn't a lot of time in my life now and time seems to go faster than summer vacation. But, we find happiness and love in the littlest moments.

My day usually begins with the sweetest alarm clock, baby babble. Evie Kay is so happy that she wakes up happy and greets the day with smiles and coos. She plays in her crib and just talks. I roll over ever so slowly and just watch. That in itself makes my day and I've not even brushed my teeth yet! She has this game she plays when she wakes up to see how many limbs she can stick out of the cradle. She loves sticking out her legs and arms. At first I thought she was stuck and hurt when I saw her do that, but she does it intentionally and for some reason it fascinates her.

Oh, here's what else fascinates her:

  • Talking of any sort
  • Music of any sort
  • Rude noises of any sort
  • A/C vents (yes this still persists, she's been doing that since about 4 weeks)
  • Lions because that's the only animal noise she can make
  • Laughter and smiles
  • Anything that lights up or makes noises
  • Anything cuddly particularly her bunny
  • Diaper changes
  • Different textures, especially baskets and kitties
  • Funny looking sunglasses
  • Pratfalls
 What fascinates me is watching her explore the world. To see a human develop, to see them find pure joy in something as simple as an A/C vent and then listen to them have a conversation with it makes every day adventurous.

So, I've not been blogging because I've been truly living, stealing moments between work and laundry with the two people I love most in the world.

Did I mention my husband has been cooking dinner this week? Did I mention he has two jobs?

Did I mention I have two loads of laundry on my sofa that have been there since last weekend? Did I mention I'm too happy to even care?

Not that it's all roses. Evie Kay slept through the night for a week but is back to 2-4am feedings. I can't figure out how to pay all the bills and daycare. I feel guilty about working even though I know Evelyn is in good hands. Any break I get I have to pump myself to feed the baby the next day. My family is missing most of the wonderment we're experiencing. I apparently lost brain cells because I can't get done half of what I did at work before the baby.

Screw it! My baby roars at lions. Do you understand what I'm saying? She's a genius. Girl-wonder. Uh-huh, I used to hate parents like me too. Oh, well, she really is the best thing on this earth in my eyes. Isn't that why we're here? And the love she's brought to our lives makes our hearts swell with happiness. And isn't that why we're here?

Seriously though it seems Evelyn is doing everything so quickly. I'm not ready for her to grow up and she's growing so fast. She's already teething, pushing off of things with her legs trying to scoot, just starting to sit tripod style if her arms can prop her, babbling, understanding words, imitating sounds and some words, belly-laughing, rolling all over the place, standing on my lap, developing relationships outside of the family, and playing.

Since I haven't blogged much here are some pictures to catch you up on Evelyn Kay.

Week 8:

Week 10:

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Week 17:

Week 18:

Now you are caught up with me and Evelyn Kay.


  1. And to think that we could have lived and died never experiencing these things! Almost frightening. Did you have any idea that this was what you wanted?

  2. No! I never could have known. In fact this is the last thing I thought I wanted. I swore I'd never get married when I was younger. Yet here I am, happiest married and with a child.

  3. She is so beautiful! She will have the grown-ups trained in no time. :)